Worrying about Tomorrow

This weekend I had a little bit of a pregnancy scare which actually ended up being something quite normal.  Not really wanting to go into detail…but let’s just say that this pregnancy is totally different then it was with Cora.  As Justin put it “You were a super hero with Cora” and I was…not really, but it was so easy.  This pregnancy has been so different.  My body feels way more pregnant and apparently Elinor wants to hang low…really, really low.

My tummy no longer pokes out but hangs down…and my eyes are practically swollen shut with fatigue.  The “cute” stage of pregnancy is over but the best part of this stage of pregnancy is I sleep like the dead.  I don’t even get up to use the bathroom more than twice a night.

Cora has a cold right now or maybe allergies.  Either way she is exhausted and grouchy.  After church yesterday I changed her into the outfit I had packed and she looked so…unkempt.  She does not fit any of her 2T pants.  I am so sad as I love this little polka dot pair.  They are hugging right around her ankles.

And her 2T shirt was too short.  I love this shirt and could not wait for her to wear it this fall…

Strange that the first year of her life she barely made the 5th percentile for height and is now is a year ahead in size.  I am mourning all the beautiful clothes she’s been given that she may never wear.

Have I mentioned lately how much I love my husband?  We may have had a weekend with a lot of tension due to my worry…

Worry is such a disease…

It eats away at my self control and my happiness…steals all the joy from my day.

Last night Justin helped me clean our whole house.  Something that meant so much to me.  I have all my “what ifs” and one is “What if I went into labor and the house was upside down and then I had to come home to it looking like THIS!”

I have been trying to maintain a clean house which is kinda hard when there’s an addition being added to our house.

I feel much more at peace today…especially when this song played on my pandora earlier this morning…

“Thou will keep me
In perfect peace when
my mind is stayed on you

Peace flowing like a river
Peace never to be stolen
Peace that you give
is not of this world
my mind is stayed on you”

-Perfect Peace by John Waller

So I am hoping that today will be a good day.  God is in control and I am not….”Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself.  Each day has enough trouble of its own.” -Matthew 6:34

Happy Monday All!

9 Responses to Worrying about Tomorrow

  1. Danelle says:

    amen sister! i needed this reminder. You look gorgeous, low belly and swollen eyes and all! I can’t wait for Elinor pictures to join your blog! She has no idea how blessed she is to enter your family! Love you!!! praying for sweet trust in our Savior in the weeks to come!

  2. bchallies says:

    Praying for all of you daily!

  3. thinking of you! this stage is hard:) Glad that despite a stressful weekend you had some time together and to take beautiful family shots!

  4. I am so glad your “symptoms” have not caused any problems for you yet. Praying always for you and the baby. I know you are OVER IT!

  5. carissa says:

    I always enjoy your pretty pictures… Especially Cora sitting on the steps with Daddy.

    My first and second pregnancies sound just like your two. Not much longer now.

    I love the feeling of waking up to a clean house. And a day without worry but rather peace and a trust in the Wonderful Maker is how our everydays should be! I wish I wouldn’t fight it so much.

  6. LeAnna says:

    I can completely understand this! I miscarried my first pregnancy, and am prone to struggle with worry whenever I’m carrying a baby. Constantly have to remind myself that tomorrow isn’t promised as it is, and worry steals joy from today. Glad to hear all is well, even though you sound like you’re stick-a-fork-in-me-done. ;) Praying you have a peace filled day today. I have to say I’m glad to see another Mama who isn’t just enamored by pregnancy, though. I always felt bad for “not liking” the last stages of pregnancy. Pregnancy is not glamorous or comfortable for this gal, and I can’t say I enjoyed every second. Totally worth it, of course, but I’ll remind you of that when your sweet babe has come out of the inn. ;)

  7. Beth says:

    Several things hit me as I was reading this. First, I can completely relate to the hubby helping you clean once the panic creeps in that baby is about to be born. If they only really knew how much that means to us. Josh did the same thing two nights before Colson was born, and coming home to a clean house is just something that every new mom must be able to do. I cannot imagine how I could have done it myself as I was about to have a baby and was chasing a 4 year old, but he stepped in and cleaned a toilet for the first time in his life. I was quite impressed.

    Second, I too relate to the worry. I wish I could say I did not go through the same thing, but I totally did, and you know it. Why we worry more the second time is not something I understand either, but we should just remind ourselves that the same God is in control with this pregnancy as was in control with the last one, and just let him have our worries. I will be praying for your worries to ease.

    Third, Pandora has been such a blessing to me too here lately! Funny how we are kind of right at the same place at the same time, and something so random as Pandora radio has been helping both of us. I am on the Nicole Nordeman channel, and have been brought to tears several times today by some of the songs it has played. Music can really calm me down, and help me to feel at ease. So I am playing it all the time now as my worries have shifted from worrying about the pregnancy, to the delivery, and now to whether or not this sweet baby is as perfect as I think he is and whether I am getting him enough milk, he is growing fast enough, etc.

    As a parent, I know we will always worry. The worst is yet to come for us, though, as you have daughters with Justin’s genes and I have sons with Josh’s genes!!

    Praying earnestly for you and Cora and Elinor and Justin too. Proud of my bro for stepping up!!!

  8. Betty says:

    Cora in her highwaters is adorable. And I love the pictures of Justin & Cora. I am praying for y’all daily. Love you, will be calling soon. I hope Cora is feeling better and you don’t get whatever it is!

  9. Susanna says:

    I’m so glad everything is alright with Elinor and you look so good…I love your shirt! Cute! Hang in there! It will be over so soon!!:)

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